The power of smells and sounds continues to amaze me. I can often travel black to a specific place or event if I smell or hear something I've known. I can be listening to a book, in the car, trying to find my place, and tell you exactly where I was the last time I listened to that segment.
Yesterday we watched some new Grey's Anatomy on NetFlix. At the end of the program they play the theme song, which should be no big deal or at least a familiar song. Jump ahead to my visit with Jenny today. She did one of the things I absolutely love about our relationship. she leans in and asks me how things really are. I wasn't really aware of showing I wasn't my chipper self but she caught me. I said I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Part of me feels guilty about not feeling wonderful because I'm doing so well but the other part of me knows this disease is going to get me one of these days.
We watched more of Grey's tonight and I was almost in tears when they played the theme again. Then I realized we watched it the whole time I was really sick and that music brought me back to that time. A time I felt awful both physically and mentally. I am not there now but if remember it well and know it will be returning again. Time to suck it up and not let it get me down but enjoy the good life I have even if it isn't ideal. Skip the theme song tomorrow night.
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