Bummin

I have done this blog with the idea that it is going to be an honest tracking of my journey and today is one of those occasional bummin days. Laid in bed for over an hour before I bothered to get up this morning, not realizing that I was feeling depressed. The tears came when Mick and I were having breakfast. It has been over 4 months since I have been able to do anything physical - way beyond any lay up I've ever had and it is going to be another 6-9 weeks before I am going to be coming out of this treatment. Patience, dear.

The last two chemos have had more of an impact, also. Yesterday I was so light headed and exhausted I had to change my final radiation to the afternoon so Mick could drive me down the hill. I never would have made it on my own. While I was there, I went to the infusion room to see what I should do. They gave me a liter of fluids which helped a little but I'm still headachey and VERY tired today.

The good news is I am done with radiation and no treatments for three weeks. I'm feeling pretty scared by the chemo ahead - three times what I have been getting. I have to get my bod back to "health"  before we poison it again. I know I can do this and have to read yesterday's post more often to get the spirits up.

Maybe I'll go for a little walk in the woods on this blue bird day and then get back to reading How Italian Food Conquered the World.