I meet the Knife again

So sorry my posts have been sparse. I have had many visitors and phone calls, trying to get in a walk a day, Phil and Lynne for a week of great distraction and laughs. Sounds like I am doing well after looking at that list. Just not enough energy to do it all.

I am so ready to eat and drink at this moment that I have to keep myself away from the kitchen. It just isn't fair they forbid food and drink after midnight whether your surgery is at 8 a.m. or 1:30 p.m. I obviously have a 1:30 time today and that makes for a very long morning.

I am coming back. We noticed I was getting pretty cranky before meals the past couple days. I am NEEDING food now and eating regular size meals again. That has to be a good sign. Get as much good stuff into me before the baddies start in February.

I'm guessing this surgery today has me more concerned that any of the others. It will tell us if I am still stage II or if I have moved on to stage III. If it is III it will mean radiation in addition to chemo. Since this appears to be a food focus blog today I will continue and explain why I don't want radiation. It will be in my throat and bronchiole region. Guess who lives behind that? It is your esophagus and we all know someone with reflux or other esophagial issues that spoil their enjoyment of food. Those who know me are well aware of how much I love good food and what a pleasure a long relaxed meal with great friends and conversation can be. I really don't want to lose those simple life pleasures, but when the choice comes to living (but missing some pleasures) or not living I know I really have no choice.